Bye Bye

How ironic is it my previous post was titled hello and this is bye bye
But bye bye indeed
because im going to singapore
I've went there so many times,
I thought i wouldn't be excited for it anymore
but heck im rather excited ahahhaha
I can't wait to see my aunt and take loads of pictures


BUT THEN
I have to wake up at 4 am tomorrow..
omg whut first time waking up at 4
i told my dad i don't wanna sleep tonight
cause i dont think i could wake up at 4
even if zelo comes and wake me
ok wait zelo maybe i would
but wake up at 4 to sit in the car for 5 hours weeeeeps


Plus, I haven't even pack yet
ughhhh i hate packing
im so lazy
can clothes pack themselves i mean like
that would make my life hundred times easier


and can you believe that my dad said that we should go shopping
lmao first time ever he said that IM JUST



Im procrastinating here because i dont want to pack
but it's quater past nine already and i cant even
i gotta pack



so hope you guys have fun
enjoy your holidays if you have em :D
Bye see you when im homeee
Hopefully.



oh and finished 2 of john green's book
and i died like 2 times..
reminder ..not to read john green books one after another
i still have 2 more of his books
he is such a great writer
he made me think about so much stuff
I didnt really cried when i read looking for alaska
but holy shit the fault in our stars
I started crying 50 pages before it ended..
and after it ended,i just closed the book and laid on the floor
and continued sobbing
oh god i have not cried so much over a book gdi

Hello

Hello there..
It's been a while.
Loads happened ,obviously.
it's been more than a month.
i blame my on going laziness.
Anyways, I'm on sem break now.
so supposedly i would blog everyday ahahha but i did not.

My music is back holla.
but it's not the only thing that's back.
BROCCOLI IS BACK TOO.
i was wondering why is she back so fast..
and then i read her blog ahahha.
So you're going pahang now huh.
cryingg dump me all alone in selangor what is this.
I hope you enjoy yourself there tho
you probably will anyways ahhaha.

I'm going singapore next week i think.
I went to the passport renewal place yesterday.
and lemme tell you that it's not one bit fun.
but if you think that standing for 5 hours straight is fun
then its probably your cup of tea.
BUT ON THE PLUS SIDE
i renewed my passport..duhhh
and i read most of looking for alaska.
I couldve finish it there but i dont feel like it
i need a nice place to finish such a nice book ahahah


I wanted to find a job since i have like six weeks but then there's like trips planned
so i dont think anyone wants  a worker that takes leaves basically everyday
god of excuses = alicia



So i saved up money to see bap in singapore..
but i dont think its happening now
im going back before they are going to singapore.
this is one sad love story i know


I dont feel like going to singapore
i've went there sooo many times
but i miss my aunt so im going anyways
hahah what am i talking


ok so im going to stop here
i shall post soon
real soon.

asdfghjkl;

Do you know that feeling when you're stressed out by all the stuff that you have to do ,but you're still too lazy to do it. Shit.
Thats exactly me right now.
Next week is gonna be hell for me.
2 days of chem test.
1 day of math test.
Due date for bio report
My english oral presentation

IM LITERALLY GONNA DIE.

I havent even started my bio report and presentation slides.
Im hearing myself gradually decomposing.


Other than that..
I got my license like the first time..
omg without paying and stuff..
i was shocked..LOL.
but i still suck at parking without tiang now.
i need more practice so i wont dissapoint the examiner who gave me a pass.
And i drove to college today..
with dad.
HOLY SHIT.
THAT HIGHWAY SHIT IS INTENSE.
AND ROUNDABOUTS TOO.
so damn scary.
My hands was literally shaking and sweating and cold..
like i was still shaking after i reach college.
And got honked by people LOL.
mean people mean.


well i wished my bio teacher is like ms charity..
like ms charity gave guidelines and a sample report for us to do ..
since its new to us.
but my bio teacher just expect us to do it by ourselves.
WHERE IS THE LOGIC AT.
crieees i dont know how to start this report and im gna die.


thats why its like eleven now and i feel like going to sleep so i dont need to think about it anymore.
I NEED TO FINISH THESE FAST
LEGIT CRIES.

oh an my glasses caused allergies thingy came back and it sucks.
i need to wear contacts for like a whole day now.
and NO.
i hate it ..
but i have too waills.



Goodnight peeps.
broccoli is gone so i doubt anyone will read my blog now so yeah..
basically typing for myself to read ahahah
ok bai.

Thank you so very much

WHAAAZZZAP
I feel so much better today its weird..
its like 1000000 times better omg
LOL i thought i can pull off the emo forever thing..
but that is hard man no joke..
one day of being in sadness is really enough for me..
my heart felt heavy for the WHOLE day yesterday gawd it was awful..
but today as light as feather ..
like i see rainbows everywhere lol
but seriously i dont think rainbows will ever make my heart lighter
bieber will..that time my heart can even fly.
anywaysss..
i did actually successfully restrained myself from twitter bwahahahha
CLAPS CLAPS ALICIA YOU DID GREAT



its 1 am now and i have driving lesson tomorrow..
I thought i was gonna be all alone
but broccolli just told me she was going too
asdfghjkl; TEARSSSS thank the vegetable godddd
anywaysss
i just wanna type this post out ahahahha..



Everybody was super nice to me YESTERDAY..
lmao i seriously dont know what they think i would do.
but i appreciate it
some of my aunts cared to asked about it so thank youuu..
oh and cousinsss too
and one of my uncleee
you guys are amazinggg..



and wattie was totally funny..
when i finally tweeted this morning..
she was like freak out mode "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN"
and said this was her first time worrying about someone blah blah
and that she feels weird and awkward LMAO
thats why she should go get a boyfriend or something ahahahah
ahha i know i've said this but i dont think i've said this enough..
Thank youuuu i love you
i cant wait for you to get your ass back here.




lmao adrea did actually realize im gone from twitter..
she mentioned me loool..
and she "accidentally" called me just now..
she called and asked for ANDREW.
great jobbb
she said she was looking at andrew's number but dailed my number...
LOL SERIOUSLY THIS GURRRL




Skyped with lyn for almost the whole day gaaaawd..
i cant wait to go karaoke together  okayyyy
ahahhaha




and Broccoliii i saw your reply thingy on your blog..
ahahah thank youuuu so much you're great <3 nbsp="" p="">i can give you free of charge next time if i ever make it LOLOLOLOLOLOL



Didnt expect so many people to care but holy shit you people are insaneee
thank you so much again..
dont even know how grateful i am to have you guys in my life
im lucky and blessed to have you guys here and this is getting cheesy
and i should stop before i cringe up till my fingers cant type anymore.


oh but definitely grateful to bieber bigbang bap infinite tumblr jennifer lawrence demi lovato ed sheeran rihanna the wanted
like you guys's videos and music made me feel super happy and blissful lol
 and all the other people that i like
ITS HARD TO LIST ALL OF THEM DOWN..
but those are the ones i listened to most yesterday coughs infinite coughs



DRIVING TEST MONDAY
COLLEGE TUESDAY
BACK TO LIFE I GUESS.


The stuff i said i would do in the holidays are all undone.
hip hip huuray ..
im gonna suffer in the coming days man
thats what you get alicia





I should really go to bed now so byeee.

:(

crying because Adrea Tan.
Why does she always makes me cry omg.

Hmmm

So I got my spm results..
I dont really know what to feel actually..
I wasn't expecting anything so its kinda mixed up.
Well,im happy with my results seeing that it may be worse and at the same time rather disappointed as it could be better?
ahahha i dont know?

To say that im sad about my results hmmm
 i think the fact that im sad is actually that i can't pursue medicine anymore?
well that broke my heart
Cause there's this rule saying that one must get B or above in chem,phy,bio and math to continue studying medicine.
But then i got a c for my chemistry..
well i guess its c for chemistry after all huh.
I dont think i will care if all my other subjects are c but this 4 are B..
at least i can still study medicine that way..
but no..
chemistry C.
well now its messed up.


I guess i lost myself somewhere in 2012 and 2011..
I forgot how much i wanted to be a doctor for a sec there..
I've always only wanted to be a doctor..
since i remembered..
anytime anywhere someone asked me what do you wanna do when you grow up?
I would always answer doctor..
Since i was 4 i think..
but then i think i kinda forgot all about that for a sec somewhere in the middle
and that sucks..a lot.



Well it hurts
you know how people say that "oh youve done your best ..."
but how do yourself know whether youve done your best?
how do you judge yourself?
have i done my best? really? i dont even know?
i dont know whats the definition of best here..
and i dont have a ruler to measure



oh and for those who got straight A's
Congratulations im really happy for you people :D
like seriously no joke super happy for you guys
LIKE BROCCOLI AND PEE..
OMG YOU GUYS ARE AWESOMEEEE
lol i was clapping SO HARD like a crazy woman when they went up stage bwahahhah...



coincidently infinite are having their comeback today..
and coincidently today is my crappy day..
and coincidently they are helping me get through it..
im super thankful and i love you guys.
you guys now have a special place in my heart,forreals.



I guess i need to think of a new thing to pursue
 but being a doctor will still always be a dream that i will keep,
deep inside my heart :D


Do you guys have any idea?
well i guess i just need to carry on with college now and work harder..
because life goes on right?



this had made me feel better,
i love you blog ,
you've been great,as always.

"nothing worth having comes easy"