Hmmm

So I got my spm results..
I dont really know what to feel actually..
I wasn't expecting anything so its kinda mixed up.
Well,im happy with my results seeing that it may be worse and at the same time rather disappointed as it could be better?
ahahha i dont know?

To say that im sad about my results hmmm
 i think the fact that im sad is actually that i can't pursue medicine anymore?
well that broke my heart
Cause there's this rule saying that one must get B or above in chem,phy,bio and math to continue studying medicine.
But then i got a c for my chemistry..
well i guess its c for chemistry after all huh.
I dont think i will care if all my other subjects are c but this 4 are B..
at least i can still study medicine that way..
but no..
chemistry C.
well now its messed up.


I guess i lost myself somewhere in 2012 and 2011..
I forgot how much i wanted to be a doctor for a sec there..
I've always only wanted to be a doctor..
since i remembered..
anytime anywhere someone asked me what do you wanna do when you grow up?
I would always answer doctor..
Since i was 4 i think..
but then i think i kinda forgot all about that for a sec somewhere in the middle
and that sucks..a lot.



Well it hurts
you know how people say that "oh youve done your best ..."
but how do yourself know whether youve done your best?
how do you judge yourself?
have i done my best? really? i dont even know?
i dont know whats the definition of best here..
and i dont have a ruler to measure



oh and for those who got straight A's
Congratulations im really happy for you people :D
like seriously no joke super happy for you guys
LIKE BROCCOLI AND PEE..
OMG YOU GUYS ARE AWESOMEEEE
lol i was clapping SO HARD like a crazy woman when they went up stage bwahahhah...



coincidently infinite are having their comeback today..
and coincidently today is my crappy day..
and coincidently they are helping me get through it..
im super thankful and i love you guys.
you guys now have a special place in my heart,forreals.



I guess i need to think of a new thing to pursue
 but being a doctor will still always be a dream that i will keep,
deep inside my heart :D


Do you guys have any idea?
well i guess i just need to carry on with college now and work harder..
because life goes on right?



this had made me feel better,
i love you blog ,
you've been great,as always.

"nothing worth having comes easy"