Thank you so very much

WHAAAZZZAP
I feel so much better today its weird..
its like 1000000 times better omg
LOL i thought i can pull off the emo forever thing..
but that is hard man no joke..
one day of being in sadness is really enough for me..
my heart felt heavy for the WHOLE day yesterday gawd it was awful..
but today as light as feather ..
like i see rainbows everywhere lol
but seriously i dont think rainbows will ever make my heart lighter
bieber will..that time my heart can even fly.
anywaysss..
i did actually successfully restrained myself from twitter bwahahahha
CLAPS CLAPS ALICIA YOU DID GREAT



its 1 am now and i have driving lesson tomorrow..
I thought i was gonna be all alone
but broccolli just told me she was going too
asdfghjkl; TEARSSSS thank the vegetable godddd
anywaysss
i just wanna type this post out ahahahha..



Everybody was super nice to me YESTERDAY..
lmao i seriously dont know what they think i would do.
but i appreciate it
some of my aunts cared to asked about it so thank youuu..
oh and cousinsss too
and one of my uncleee
you guys are amazinggg..



and wattie was totally funny..
when i finally tweeted this morning..
she was like freak out mode "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN"
and said this was her first time worrying about someone blah blah
and that she feels weird and awkward LMAO
thats why she should go get a boyfriend or something ahahahah
ahha i know i've said this but i dont think i've said this enough..
Thank youuuu i love you
i cant wait for you to get your ass back here.




lmao adrea did actually realize im gone from twitter..
she mentioned me loool..
and she "accidentally" called me just now..
she called and asked for ANDREW.
great jobbb
she said she was looking at andrew's number but dailed my number...
LOL SERIOUSLY THIS GURRRL




Skyped with lyn for almost the whole day gaaaawd..
i cant wait to go karaoke together  okayyyy
ahahhaha




and Broccoliii i saw your reply thingy on your blog..
ahahah thank youuuu so much you're great <3 nbsp="" p="">i can give you free of charge next time if i ever make it LOLOLOLOLOLOL



Didnt expect so many people to care but holy shit you people are insaneee
thank you so much again..
dont even know how grateful i am to have you guys in my life
im lucky and blessed to have you guys here and this is getting cheesy
and i should stop before i cringe up till my fingers cant type anymore.


oh but definitely grateful to bieber bigbang bap infinite tumblr jennifer lawrence demi lovato ed sheeran rihanna the wanted
like you guys's videos and music made me feel super happy and blissful lol
 and all the other people that i like
ITS HARD TO LIST ALL OF THEM DOWN..
but those are the ones i listened to most yesterday coughs infinite coughs



DRIVING TEST MONDAY
COLLEGE TUESDAY
BACK TO LIFE I GUESS.


The stuff i said i would do in the holidays are all undone.
hip hip huuray ..
im gonna suffer in the coming days man
thats what you get alicia





I should really go to bed now so byeee.

:(

crying because Adrea Tan.
Why does she always makes me cry omg.

Hmmm

So I got my spm results..
I dont really know what to feel actually..
I wasn't expecting anything so its kinda mixed up.
Well,im happy with my results seeing that it may be worse and at the same time rather disappointed as it could be better?
ahahha i dont know?

To say that im sad about my results hmmm
 i think the fact that im sad is actually that i can't pursue medicine anymore?
well that broke my heart
Cause there's this rule saying that one must get B or above in chem,phy,bio and math to continue studying medicine.
But then i got a c for my chemistry..
well i guess its c for chemistry after all huh.
I dont think i will care if all my other subjects are c but this 4 are B..
at least i can still study medicine that way..
but no..
chemistry C.
well now its messed up.


I guess i lost myself somewhere in 2012 and 2011..
I forgot how much i wanted to be a doctor for a sec there..
I've always only wanted to be a doctor..
since i remembered..
anytime anywhere someone asked me what do you wanna do when you grow up?
I would always answer doctor..
Since i was 4 i think..
but then i think i kinda forgot all about that for a sec somewhere in the middle
and that sucks..a lot.



Well it hurts
you know how people say that "oh youve done your best ..."
but how do yourself know whether youve done your best?
how do you judge yourself?
have i done my best? really? i dont even know?
i dont know whats the definition of best here..
and i dont have a ruler to measure



oh and for those who got straight A's
Congratulations im really happy for you people :D
like seriously no joke super happy for you guys
LIKE BROCCOLI AND PEE..
OMG YOU GUYS ARE AWESOMEEEE
lol i was clapping SO HARD like a crazy woman when they went up stage bwahahhah...



coincidently infinite are having their comeback today..
and coincidently today is my crappy day..
and coincidently they are helping me get through it..
im super thankful and i love you guys.
you guys now have a special place in my heart,forreals.



I guess i need to think of a new thing to pursue
 but being a doctor will still always be a dream that i will keep,
deep inside my heart :D


Do you guys have any idea?
well i guess i just need to carry on with college now and work harder..
because life goes on right?



this had made me feel better,
i love you blog ,
you've been great,as always.

"nothing worth having comes easy"