The day before

So i just watched a really depressing mv..
lmao or rather a sad mv..
and i cried like shit omgawwwd.






if you wanna watch the video please watch it first like i beg you.. lol cause spoilers are coming up.. but really,you should watch it and interprete it yourself first.. although its a korean song but hey there's translations :D i thought about you guys okay :D you're welcome :) Now watch it.



so i watched the eatyourkimchi awards and they introduced this song.. then i was like oh cool maybe i will try to listen/watch it. The first time watching it i have no idea what was happening except for a guy dying. Then i was like this  confuses me i should look up the meaning.. So i said hi to google obviously.. some comments on youtube helped too.. but there still isnt a fix meaning to it so people can actually just say anything about it.



There are people who's saying they are a gay couple..which okay fine it can be.. but most of them are saying that they are friends. I'll just name them as short hair guy and long hair guy cause i think they are actors not the actual singers..either or ..i still no nothing bout the names so yeaaa. Okay so apparently short hair guy committed suicide and he filmed it. and his friend (long hair guy) somehow gotten the tape/camera set so the long haired guy went back to the scene and watched the friend's video. and i guess he was talking too or thinking like how to safe his friend. basically its like that.



I was thinking like how lonely it must've been to die alone.. with depression wrap all around you.. with no one there ... with no hope at all... and how easy for him to pour the poison into his coffee.. it makes me instantly sad watching him die like that..


and for the friend.. how sad would he be knowing that the friend ended his own life.. without telling him.. and how helpless would he be knowing that he could've maybe done something.. and imagine him watching the video thinking about all the unspoken stuff that he hasn't said out loud to him yet. and watching his friend step by step giving up on his life wow.



i couldnt imagine being him.. i couldnt imagine people close to me dying i couldnt imagine how people choose to just stop breathing like that i couldnt imagine what they've been / going through to come down to such a cruel decision i just couldnt






the song is just so sad but yet so beautiful  the lyrics and video and the beat and the singer's voice and the violin in the background just go so well and layered this song with such thick emotions  makes one wonder about life and no one said its going to be easy but i hope people would just hold on or call out for help you know. maybe i dont understand the depression they're experiencing and maybe i never will.. but sighs....... i dont know.

this video is not real but there are stuff like this happening and its not even right well i just hope they would find someone or even something to save them or hold on to cause i dont think anybody would really want to die deep down somewhere in their hearts.



while i was watching the video i just really hoped that i know how to lip read in korean lol.. cause they were murmuring something and i dont understand a single thing well obviously hah. gah i wish i knew what were they talking about.



this post is quite depressing huh well im sorry i just feel like posting about it :) so i shall stop here now,lemme know what you think or what's your take on the video :) would like to hear from different people.

Honestly, this is the truth 

There is no use in trying to hold on to the scattered pieces