COLLEGE ORIENTATION DAY

I had trouble sleeping yesterday cause i was nervous stupid i dont even know for what criessss.
which means i had trouble waking up lawl
wait i will have trouble waking up anywaysss..
So traffic was horrible..
i decided that i cant drive to college next time even after i got my license..
with that traffic jam..i'll probably fall asleep there or i'll cut everybody.



So finally reached there with my dad..
APPARENTLY THERES LIKE 1000000000000 PPL TAKING MUFY.
The queue for mufy was so long i thought people were queuing for free food.
They distributed the file and stuff and ask me to go to some certain classroom WITH STAIRS.
So i nearly got lost because so damn big.
Finally got there..no one i know is there so i just sat down awkwardly (COUGHSS AS USUAL)
Then two of the mufy instructor came in and decided that its ice breaking time wow what a surprise.
so basically they gave each of us a piece of paper with 20 questions on it.
i.e. who likes to travel,who can sing,who cooks
and you kinda need to go around and find people that actually fits the description.
and the names cannot be repeated.
SO I ACTUALLY HAVE TO GO AND SOCIALIZE.
well it was pretty fun though.
but i wouldnt want to do it again.Okay.



Then we went down to the hall and uh listen to a bunch of speeches..
and i yawned as much as those words coming out of their mouth.
Some of it was funny and interesting tho.
But they have like too little clubs seriously..
and they're all like basic clubs i cryyy
i thought college would have more interesting clubs thoooo
Everything in there is either IT or student card
LIKE IF YOU DONT HAVE A STUDENT CARD OR USERNAME AND PASSWORD
THATS THE END OF YOUR LIFE IN CAMPUS
okay im exaggerating but seriously thooo
The campus is surrounded with wifi connection and if you dont have username and password,
you cant access the sexy wifi
Well..i need to get mine quickly..
and cant wait to go to the library to see what books they have
hopefully there's fictionnnn :D



Now i realize there's a lot of people from smkkk and smkpbp going for mufy
BUT I DONT SEE ANYONE HELLO WHERE ARE YOU PEOPLE.
I only saw reena and emily and some science one people
every other people taking other stuff lol
oh yea and by the way i need go there super early like everyday because i cant drive yet and dad is dropping me off when he goes to work.
THATS WHY MY NOVELS ARE THERE FOR ME :3
but if you're reading this blog and going to sunway college early please come and entertain me.
sincerely,Alicia.




Here comes the DENGDENGDENGDENG part
so i was looking at my timetable like randomly..
and BAM ENGLISH AND MATHEMATICS PLACEMENT TEST
like WHY DIDNT I KNEW ABOUT THIS
I havent written in like so long i've only been editing pictures like what is ABC.
When my brain is rusty oh ITS RUSTY.
and lemme tell you.
ENGLISH JUST RIPPED MY HEART OUT AND SQUEEZE IT INFRONT OF MY EYES.
yea thats how a hell english was.
Math was easier than english..
and Alicia would never ever say math is easier especially while comparing to ENGLISH.
BUT I JUST DID
Like i was so shocked by the english standards i need to improve it like ASAP right now
I keep telling my dad english test was so tough english test was so tough like a hundred times
i think he wanted to sew up my mouth.
LIKE IT WAS SO TORTURERS UP TO THE POINT WHERE IM ACTUALLY AMAZED BY IT OKAY
im gonna improve my english
there..i have a new years resolution now.LOL





So i THOUGHT we needed a calculator for the math test.
and I WENT ALL THE WAY TO CHEAU TYAN TO BORROW ONE.
since she's in A-levels so she's like the other side of the campus
ran there ran back
THEY SAID CALCULATOR WAS NOT ALLOWED.
I was so near to just bang my head with the calculator till the calculator bleed but since it's cheau tyan so...
Im so grateful to her tho
I'LL HELP YOU PEE LIKE NEXT TIME I SWEAR :)



It was tiring so tiring but somehow it was amazing as well.
THERE'S LIKE A 3 HOUR CAMPUS TOUR TOMORROW LOL
BYE MY LOVELY LEGS.
YOU'VE SERVED ME WELL.




Shall sleep early today so tomorrow wouldnt be all fuzzy and dreamy.
IM EXCITED FOR TOMORROW
SO BRING IT ON.
MAY GOOD STUFF HAPPEN TO ME bwahahahah
AND MAY ME MAKE NICE FRIENDS..
but since we havent choose our subject yet..
its kinda useless to make friends now lol..
anyhow im quite hopeless in making friends lmao
SO THANK YOU MY FRIENDS NOW OR PREVIOUSLY FOR BEING MY FRIENDS.
YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU OKAY





its nearly ten so i should do some tumblring and sleep :)
may tomorrow be good for you and me :D

The day before

So i just watched a really depressing mv..
lmao or rather a sad mv..
and i cried like shit omgawwwd.






if you wanna watch the video please watch it first like i beg you.. lol cause spoilers are coming up.. but really,you should watch it and interprete it yourself first.. although its a korean song but hey there's translations :D i thought about you guys okay :D you're welcome :) Now watch it.



so i watched the eatyourkimchi awards and they introduced this song.. then i was like oh cool maybe i will try to listen/watch it. The first time watching it i have no idea what was happening except for a guy dying. Then i was like this  confuses me i should look up the meaning.. So i said hi to google obviously.. some comments on youtube helped too.. but there still isnt a fix meaning to it so people can actually just say anything about it.



There are people who's saying they are a gay couple..which okay fine it can be.. but most of them are saying that they are friends. I'll just name them as short hair guy and long hair guy cause i think they are actors not the actual singers..either or ..i still no nothing bout the names so yeaaa. Okay so apparently short hair guy committed suicide and he filmed it. and his friend (long hair guy) somehow gotten the tape/camera set so the long haired guy went back to the scene and watched the friend's video. and i guess he was talking too or thinking like how to safe his friend. basically its like that.



I was thinking like how lonely it must've been to die alone.. with depression wrap all around you.. with no one there ... with no hope at all... and how easy for him to pour the poison into his coffee.. it makes me instantly sad watching him die like that..


and for the friend.. how sad would he be knowing that the friend ended his own life.. without telling him.. and how helpless would he be knowing that he could've maybe done something.. and imagine him watching the video thinking about all the unspoken stuff that he hasn't said out loud to him yet. and watching his friend step by step giving up on his life wow.



i couldnt imagine being him.. i couldnt imagine people close to me dying i couldnt imagine how people choose to just stop breathing like that i couldnt imagine what they've been / going through to come down to such a cruel decision i just couldnt






the song is just so sad but yet so beautiful  the lyrics and video and the beat and the singer's voice and the violin in the background just go so well and layered this song with such thick emotions  makes one wonder about life and no one said its going to be easy but i hope people would just hold on or call out for help you know. maybe i dont understand the depression they're experiencing and maybe i never will.. but sighs....... i dont know.

this video is not real but there are stuff like this happening and its not even right well i just hope they would find someone or even something to save them or hold on to cause i dont think anybody would really want to die deep down somewhere in their hearts.



while i was watching the video i just really hoped that i know how to lip read in korean lol.. cause they were murmuring something and i dont understand a single thing well obviously hah. gah i wish i knew what were they talking about.



this post is quite depressing huh well im sorry i just feel like posting about it :) so i shall stop here now,lemme know what you think or what's your take on the video :) would like to hear from different people.

Honestly, this is the truth 

There is no use in trying to hold on to the scattered pieces